Do you know someone that seems to turn heads wherever they go? The reason for this isn't immediately apparent. They just stand out. Attract attention. Well I'm that stand out person. It's not always a comfortable position to be in, but I'm used to it and rather enjoy the heat of the spotlight. A side effect of that kind of heat, however, is a pretty thick protective wall. I'm friendly, but rather slow to let my guard down.
When I started writing, I only knew one person who was into blogging. Pretty much all of my readers were random e-friends who didn't know me or have any access to my life. So feeling safe in my relative anonymity, I would just sit down and let it roll - unedited - right out into print.
In my new city, however, EVERYONE blogs. For some reason, mine spread like wildfire amongst the locals, giving me quite a bit of notoriety. I felt I was surrounded by like minded women who valued people on a level deeper than mere common interests, so I let my guard down and enjoyed the benefits of that attention.
But the sad fact remains; anyone who attracts attention can expect a mean-spirited backlash at some point. Last year that backlash hit me like a runaway dumpster. Normally, something like that would just roll off of me. But then normally, I have my guard up. This time it really affected me and I could no longer find a shred of motivation to publish my writing.
Blah blah blah. Whine whine whine. I'm done hiding out. All the creative energy that I used to spend on here has been exploding into other areas of my life. It's left me with more writing material then I'll ever be able to use. I've got to get it out! If you speak Tongue in Cheek, feel free to peek in on me now and then. If you DON'T speak Tongue in Cheek, hear this now:
I am flawed AND I am fabulous! Just like you. Embrace it with me!
Then we can all just get along.
I'M EFFING KIDDING!!!
I am not narcissistic. I don't think I'm stunning or superior or anything overtly important. But I am, and have always been happy with myself as I evolve. Skinny or fat, blonde or brunette, put together or falling apart; I am flawed AND I am fabulous! Just like you. Embrace it with me!
Then we can all just get along.
18 comments:
Yay!!! You're back! Oh how I've missed you! AND I was just thinking it today while I was working on a blog that links you. Soon, it will be ready, soon, I hope...
Marni!!! I've missed you too. I've been feeling the blog fever coming on for a couple of months & I couldn't fight it any more. Can't wait to read your next post hon!
That's crazy! I was just going through my old blog posts setting up tags (and reading their comments) and wondering how you were doing. Then I saw you come up in my feed again. I'm so glad to see you're making another go of it!
It's a Christmas MIRACLE!!
Even tho I get a healthy dose of you in real life, I have so missed your blogs and your written creativity ..
HOoRay!!
I love you and your blog, I've missed you like crazy! I'm sorry you got some backlash, thats terrible! Well, guess what? I've moved back to Washington from Utah, and now we can be best friends! ;) Whoo!
good, I was wondering where you ran off to... and I agree you have got more than your fair share of notoriety, glad to see you pushing through it :)
Well, it's about "effing" time! ;)
You know I think you're awesome, no matter what. I have missed your writing. Hope to see you again in February!
I've read your blog for a very long time, I guess you could call me a silent lurker.
Glad you are back and blogging.
I've never met you in real life, but I love your blog. You have a unique voice and I'm glad you're back!
OMG!!! I didn't even realize how much I really REALLY missed you guys!
It's been awhile since I stopped by your blog.....hope you're well.
P.S. Love your profile pic!
You are a crazy bird. I'll give you that. I like the pretty feathers though, and the nest needed some fluffin' up. That said, I was probably one of the 'oh, my, goshers' and pray I did not injure. The proverbial and literal nest needs you. Glad you are back :)
Welcome back! And might I add that i love that you said "effin'". xoxo
Yours spread like wildfire because you are made out of wildfire! That makes me sad that you got your feelings hurt but I'm glad you're back!!!
OMG Holly, I LOVE that sentence! It totally defines my existence! I'm going to get it tattooed on my inner thigh.
Holy Crap you are back!!! I thought your blog was dead! Yes your creativity was missed cuz when you wrote you did it so exquisitely! So glad you are back! You are one of the peeps that cannot avoid being published if you ever focus on writing a book or being a huge sensation as a blogger. Glad you have come out of hiding!
I am so glad your back. seriously I've stalked your blog monthly
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